Little Lydibug: Lydibug, it's all about to change.

This post was started the weekend before I went back to work. I was an emotional wreck and Lydibug wasn't well, and now I'm back at work it took a while to get the photos and videos sorted. But this is how I was feeling at the time.
Update 13/4/11
Lydi had her 2nd day at the childminder's today and I think she has already figured out what is going to happen. This morning as soon as she saw her backpack she clung onto me, hardest goodbye yet. Yes, there were more tears from both of us. I know she has fun during the day charging about with the other bubs, but it doesn't make leaving her any easier.

To my gorgeous girl,
For the last 14 months I have been with you everyday. I've shared every smile, tear and giggle with you and though there have been a few tough days I wouldn't change a moment of it. But life as we know it is about to change. Mummy is going back to work and you are going to start having your own adventures. I wish I could be with you everyday but sadly, as you'll no doubt find out, money is needed to keep things going.
You were so brave at your day care visits, much braver than Mummy who sat in the car round the corner crying her eyes out after the first drop off. Your carer said you had a few little cries but after a quick cuddle and some toys to distract you you were off again playing with the other children. You will get used to daycare, soon you'll be wanting to go rather than being stuck at home.
This week has been amazing, you are walking!!! After watching your friends run about in the park you took your first 2 steps last Saturday, within a few days you were walking across the lounge and climbing down the steps to walk around the garden.

With this new skill you have also discovered a huge amount of independence (a polite way of describing your new stubborness). Believe me, I didn't let you walk onto the road for a very good reason and the huge temper tantrum you threw was not necessary. I'm sure there will be many more of those to come and I promise I won't always laugh, but you did look funny sitting on the grass verge kicking your legs and squeezing out tears.
We had such a lovely day yesterday at Roma St Parklands. You saw where Mummy and Daddy used to live and you met some barnyard babies. You loved being in with the animals but didn't want to touch them. The ducks were your favourite, you kept trying to quack at them. We had a great play in the park and you loved sharing my ice-cream, you definately have my sweet tooth. I promise we will have lots of special days like that in the future.